how awesome is my LORD!

so i found God recently and it has been miracle after miracle that i’ve been experiencing but then i failed Him and fell off bc the devil couldn’t handle losing me to Him so he tempted me to smoke weed for a second (and last) time and brought back my depression which was devastating to me. all this week people keep coming to me asking me to go to their church to learn more about God …even a “heavenly mother” and i resisted bc it didn’t feel right. i went back to my roots and went to my catholic church for a special mass my mom dedicated to my grandpa and i realized then that i am not catholic. I don’t like the service and i just couldn’t hear god speaking to me. i even started dozing off. the moment i got outta church i hit up my best friend jonathan n told him n he advised me to go to this church in bk. i was like ehhh i dont feel like going. i made every excuse to not go such as: i don’t wanna go ALONE and he said to me “you’re with god, u r never alone” so i looked this church up online n it’s so famous it has its own page and i looked into it n started to loosen up to the idea. then i asked my mom to come with me and she actually said no to me bc she can be hesistant/ignorant to other religions than her own. but theeeeen… (this is the amazing part) i was listening to a sermon online from oct.23rd and it was speaking about the exact same trials and tribulations i am currently dealing with. i began to cry hysterically that my mom came into the room. she asked what was wrong and i just told her to listen…. i replayed the part of the sermon that hit me hard and she said “massiel i will go with you this sunday to the service” OH mY GOODNESS when i heard this i was shocked bc she had even said oh go ask ur sisters to go with u bc she wouldn’t come. but she agreed. and we listened to the rest of the sermon and then i went on to listen to a second one and i fell more in love so im definitely going this sunday, i might even try to join a program for young adults called transitions. it’s the least i could do for JC for giving up his life for me….I’m gonna pray on it to see what GOd wants. but anyways i should go to bed i just had to share this with ..well no one bc i don’t really know if anyone reads my stuff. I feel so uplifted again…..i’m never letting go! with His help of course. goodnight!